At some point you might need to let go.
It’s been some time since this feeling has “invaded” my thoughts. You might remember me discussing earlier in the year the importance of taking a step back in order to move forward. All of us come to a crossroads in our lives when we have to decide whether or not to stay the course, or adjust our sails.
One thing I’ve learned in my 30 years on this earth is it’s okay to have multiple passions. Kudos to those people who know exactly what they want to do. My husband and father-in-law are examples. They wanted to be engineers all their lives. I on the other hand had no clue and dabbled in many things until I felt like one stuck.
For as long as I can remember, I have been all about decorating and all things interiors. I love the idea of adding personal touches to a home and making it yours through accessories and style. This has been my world for over a decade as I worked with clients building custom homes that eventually led me to start my own company. Since then, things have evolved to home-related reads and tips on my decorating site.
This satisfied a passion inside me for many years that led to some pretty good press and contacts in the industry. There are times I can remember having Carrie Bradshaw moments as I traveled throughout New York City heading from event to event. It was a really great experience that made for wonderful stories.
Well, times have since changed.
I got married, had my first child (currently expecting my second) and moved halfway across the country. All of these life events didn’t mean I needed to give up my dream, but something inside of me started to change–along with my focus on what’s important. I found myself becoming less and less passionate about the very thing that once gave me so much happiness. Did this mean my love for design has completely dissolved? No. I do however feel myself being pulled in a new direction.
There are many topics and causes that pull on my heart. Whether it’s the need to volunteer or highlight tips that can make someone’s life better, I love to help. Don’t get me wrong, decorating is cool and all, but to me, it doesn’t benefit the greater good. This in no way means that those operating in creative sectors don’t have value. Much of their work does in fact make folks feel great and has the ability to transform the everyday into the extraordinary. I personally want something more, something that reaches multiple categories and not just design.
For the longest time it feels like I have bottled up this feeling and kept it on the back burner. Over time it has become harder and harder to concentrate as the whisper I once heard is getting louder by the day. I can no longer ignore it and am dedicating time to figure out the next chapter in my life.
Have you ever felt like a dream you once had is no longer a relevant vision?
After so much time of putting in blood, sweat and tears to make something work, it can be a really hard decision to let go. If you feel it’s the best option for your life, don’t feel like a failure. Letting go has led so many people to greatness they had no idea existed. It’s very easy to hold on to things we know and make us comfortable, but the real leap of faith comes when we feel a tug in a new direction. No one says you need to go cold turkey and just quit, especially without a plan. All I can say is not to rob yourself of the chance to explore it. You never want to look back on your life and wonder what if.
Life is a book made of different chapters and edits.